How could you? How could you do this
to her? She loved you, she truly loved you, and you left her completely broken.
You were not even sad, just different maybe. You were all like “fuck, now
everyone will know”, but you didn’t even worry for her. For what you had done. For
what you had lost.
You know? She was willing to forgive
all that you had said, all that you hadn’t done; but then she found out. And
you couldn’t at least apologize to her. It wouldn’t have changed anything, but
maybe she would be different now. She would know that, after all, you weren’t
proud of it, you weren’t proud of hurting her. But that’s the worst part, that
you didn’t regret it. Maybe she would be able to feel again, to love again and
most of all to let people love her again if she knew it wasn’t at all her
fault.
However, that’s the risk of betting
for what you want, you can always take with you the worst part. And at a
certain point, that’s what she did.