How could you? How could you do this to her? She loved you, she truly loved you, and you left her completely broken. You were not even sad, just different maybe. You were all like “fuck, now everyone will know”, but you didn’t even worry for her. For what you had done. For what you had lost.
You know? She was willing to forgive all that you had said, all that you hadn’t done; but then she found out. And you couldn’t at least apologize to her. It wouldn’t have changed anything, but maybe she would be different now. She would know that, after all, you weren’t proud of it, you weren’t proud of hurting her. But that’s the worst part, that you didn’t regret it. Maybe she would be able to feel again, to love again and most of all to let people love her again if she knew it wasn’t at all her fault.
However, that’s the risk of betting for what you want, you can always take with you the worst part. And at a certain point, that’s what she did.